I think this is one of the things that is tough about lymphedema. You have to keep one foot in cancerland when you see a bug, or get a scratch, or for some unknown reason you are out having fun and your arm starts looking like a pool toy.
I hope and suspect these ups and downs are a "normal" part of recovery, and that we will learn to manage them better as time goes on. The ladders will get easier and the landings will get softer.
Suzanne
Yes, my first year out was a real rollercoaster. It does get easier as time goes on, but I know that each time I feel a pain, I always wonder....Cancer is good at those mind games.
ReplyDeleteHang in there. Life as "normal" will never be the way it was, but it will be good nonetheless!
As cancer survivors, we've climbed onboard the mental and emotional rollercoaster of survivorship, except our journeys bear no resemblance to an "amusement park." There's nothing amusing about the very real fears that "it" may be waiting for us around the next curve. While we do relax into our new normal, all it takes is a sore muscle or a bad back to land us smack dab in the middle of cancer's mind game. When that happens, take the proper steps to ease your mind and know that more than likely, you are fine.
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